Yesterday, for a short time some moments of the past crept in. It happened in a matter of a few words spoken.
I won’t expand on all the details, but it so quickly took me for a surprise, and evoked feelings that were like those when I was going through a time of depression.
The anxiety that I felt was hard to contain and I didn’t. The initial aspects only lasted minutes, but the emotions that surfaced are still with me today.
It is strange how a word, can lead to a phrase, that then leads to expressions…. that then lead to emotional reactions.
These past few weeks, I have had some challenges with my health. (It seems to me the word, ‘again’ fits) I guess it goes with age some of it. One of the issues was that I ended up in emergency a couple of weeks ago, because I woke up at 3 am not really speaking or making sense. It is possible that it was a mini stroke (TIA) but equally possible it was something else. There are some other issues, but won’t go into them.
The only reason I mention that last part, is that I guess, not feeling well, it leaves me vulnerable to over-reaction of words spoken, or perceived criticism, whether there or not.
Anyway, that’s what the left-overs of depression, that sometimes ‘lurk’ in the recesses of your mind, can do to a person years later, if conditions are at all present.
For awhile my strength was very much diminished. I know by the end of today, with God’s help, I will be okay and my physical and emotional well-being will be as it should.
I write this only as more information, that may help or educate one who suffers/suffered with depression, or one who lives with a person who does………….. I guess I also wrote it to just ‘write’ it! ??
(p.s. I’m somewhat slow in catching up on your blogs; I was also away for 3 days with my sister. I’m hoping to gradually catch up) ………………….. Diane xx