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Thankfulness Mondays – “In Spite Of”

Week 50 (of 52).  I’ve been blogging with Bernadette of Haddon Musings, and several others of things in our lives or of things around us, that we are thankful for, and that perhaps offset negative situations around us and in the world.

Before I go any further, my thoughts and many others go out to Bernadette, who has of late had a great sadness and while she is I know and has been very grateful and thankful in abundance, is now experiencing one of those times that we most likely all will or have faced in our lifetime; a time of grieving. Her son is and has been not well for many years, but the family now faces the fact that they will likely lose him very soon. She has therefore taken a hiatus from blogging for a time. My heart goes out to her, but I so appreciate even the fact that she has over this past ‘almost year’ given me pause to appreciate the blessings in my life. May she find the peace, healing and strength that she needs in the days ahead.

Like Bernadette, there are many who are struggling with one area or another.  The people who of late, are being terrorized in U.K; Afghanistan, France, Syria and so many other places; one would think have very little to be thankful for.

When one sees and hears of their strength of perseverance, the heroism of many, and their determination to not give into fear and hate, in spite of’ the atrocities that are happening to them.  I am so thankful when I hear that their spirits, while very wounded, their physical well-beings are challenged, and the sanctity of life is being so disrespected; the vast majority of people do not want to give up; do not want this violence to control or consume their lives.

One doesn’t just have to look at the present but the past also. How it might be the easier route to just throw up your hands, and in fact just give up on the human race.

But we don’t and we can’t, just as in our personal lives we must persevere with what we face in life. Sometimes, we do need a time of quietness of mind and spirit, or in the case of a personal loss to grieve and to heal.

But as nations and people, we must try not to let the trying and even tumultuous events that befall us ‘defeat us or define us’, and when I look around the world today, the spirit of ‘man/woman’ wages on and we are not defeated!

 

 

Reflections – Poem

Something on my heart to write …..

POEM FOR MY CHILDREN

Sometimes I find it easier to say

In a poem of sorts

To say what’s on my heart

Hope it is the right way

We’ve had the times in younger days

We talked, and laughed and cried

Growing up was full of joys

But also of mixed ways

We shared the good, we shared the sad

And as you grew, things changed a bit

Life became complex

And some things went from good to bad

I had an illness many years which took it’s toll

A toll on all around, not just me

It wasn’t something that I chose

But an illness, within my soul

….

When depression was part of me

Others could not know

The veil of darkness that was there

Ways they couldn’t see

….

During this time, I couldn’t know

The reason for it all

I wanted it just to end

I didn’t understand the ways to go


It carried on for quite some time

And caused much strife within

It also cost me dearly to

Those around whose love was mine

Sometimes left with just my thoughts

Of how to handle things

My family also had their ways

Of wondering what life brought

Those times have gone and took some years

To find the key to peace

But remnants left and scars remain

And with it many tears

You see there’s guilt within me lies

For wasted time spent

Within the darkness deep inside

And with it many sighs

….

While freedom now is with me strong

I guess there’s feelings still

I feel are unresolved

But maybe that’s where they belong

….

Perhaps I can’t go back

And ever make things right

To change the way they were

Or what it was I lacked

….

I long to really to go from here

And enjoy what time remains

I wonder if what holds me back

Is just plain old fear

Fear that forgiveness is what I seek

Acceptance to give myself

The need to know

That others know I am no longer weak

I feel the joy within me spark

Laughter and life to enjoy

And long for my family to know

My life is no longer dark.

So accept me please, I still have flaws

Perfect I’ll never be

But I am not the same as before

I’ll not be as I ‘was’