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Thankfulness Monday ‘early’

In participating with Bernadette of Haddon Musings, I’m doing the post Thankfulness Mondays early,  because I was nominated for the Mystery Blogger award, by Cheri of Joyously Hopeful, who writes beautifully about many things, but especially of children with special needs. She is the mother of a child with autism and does so,to encourage and inform others  about autism.

Although I don’t participate in the award process, I do acknowledge and am thankful to Cheri for the nomination.

While I don’t actually take part anymore the questions she was asking the nominees, got me thinking so I thought I would answer them, in a post

Note….After doing the first one, I realize I can’t do all of them in one post, as it would be too long, I  will do the others at a later date.
  1. What is a cause that is worth dedicating your life to?
  2. What’s your “Back in my day, we…”?
  3. If coffee was illegal, what would its street name be?
  4. What movie title best describes your life?
  5. Which way should toilet paper hang, over or under?

1.  I can say that I have a personal cause or goal for my life, and one for outside my own world. The personal one is to encourage and perhaps have some influence in my grandchildren and great-grandchild’s life. My desire for them is to realize what the most important things in life are; to love and support ‘unconditionally’  their family,  especially during difficult times when it’s not so easy to do, and to care and have compassion for everyone.

 My hope  and prayer also, is that they will want God to be an important part in the years ahead, in all that they do 

6 of our grandchildren

6 of our grandchildren

The other cause that has been part of me, and impacts me is the plight of those in other parts of the world, or even in our own country who are without hope or justice. Those who don’t have even the basic necessities of life. I worked for many years for a Christian non-profit organization World Vision, and it gave me joy to be a part of helping in some way. We still participate in sponsoring a child and their community.

I’ll leave it there….oh except I think I will answer #5… ‘under’ of course; it’s the only way to go !   ha!

CONNECTION……Body, Mind, and Spirit

Having experienced depression throughout most of my adult life, makes me once again realize that we are intricately connected by our ‘body, mind and spirit.

I’ve been free from the depth of darkness and depression for several years now, but the past couple of years with physical issues related to myself and my husband; and the deaths of several family members, I have once again realized how each facet of our being affects the others.

When our health is not the best, then it follows that we don’t think as clearly and that in turn affects our spiritual nature.

I feel right now like I’m in a bubble, wanting to do much more than I do, and when I don’t, I feel like a failure… Now I don’t really think I’m a failure; that’s a strong word, but I just don’t feel as though I’m part of what’s going on around me.

That’s the trick of the mind reacting in a negative way, which of course can mushroom into further difficulties. Fortunately I don’t travel back into the times of depression of earlier years, but there is a dullness in the spirit, and motivation. I go through the motions and do what I need to do, and go where I need to go, but it is with a feeling of doing so in a fog.

Concentration/fatigue are big factors that keeps me from accomplishing what I wish I could. I scan through some blogs, and think about writing, but come up short right now so much of the time.

Anyway, I know that many of you are going through issues of your own; some much more than I.

I hold on to hope that one day I will feel energized and will be able to participate more fully in many things, among which of course, is ‘blogging’ !   (Diane)

P.S. There are blessings around at even difficult times, that warm the spirit and soul, and one of them was a couple of weeks ago, when our grandson was surprised by his parents with a graduation party. They live in the States but arranged for older school friends and family back here in Canada, to help him celebrate graduating with high honors, and attending University in the fall. This is a photo with him and I.

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A Year ‘plus’ in Review

This past year ‘and more’ has been really tough. Yesterday I was just mentally trying to sort why I have been so discombobulated, and put it down to the issues over this period of time.

I haven’t been active much on my blog, on Facebook or even painting. My mind is just on overload I guess.

There has according to an estimate I quickly did of 80 plus appointments between my husband and I; some of which included procedures or surgery. There have been three deaths in the family, and the attempt to support my sister as one was her husband.

There is still this extreme fatigue which to this point has not resolved. It is believed to be the Multiple Sclerosis type, that I experienced prior to being diagnosed back in 1991, and while at times I have been tired it has not been like this until this past 6 months or so. I’ll see a neurologist the end of this month, hopeful that perhaps there will be some medication to alleviate it. While I function and am not physically severely debilitated, it is like going through a fog each day.

If I could relieve it by sleep I would, but unfortunately I can’t; but when I can, just close my eyes and rest my head. I do sleep at night but only because of some medication to help.

There is also one other issue with eating, as basically I have hardly any motility in my esophagus so food gets stuck. Again I will see a specialist but not for a few months as there is a wait.

I feel like my motivation and clarity of thought to do much of anything, is just a void right now. I want to write, but not always about my problems, so hence the lack of blogging right now.

I wish I could do the proverbial ‘snap out of it’. As most of you realize that is not the answer; it’s not as simple as that.

Having said all of that, I know many of you are going through issues of your own. I do think of my friends here in the blogging community, and will be striving to become more involved when I can.

I hope to squeeze in some posts when able to do so, hoping that it might be more a more enlightening subject than just ‘me’.

Take care…. Diane

 

 

 

A-Z Challenge ‘Just’……. not me

JWell, as I’ve tried to do this challenge though unofficially, I’ve found that writing for ‘just’ writing’s sake, is not for me. Since I began blogging in 2011 my premise has been that I would write about whatever I was feeling or interested in, and not worry about stats or followers or a theme.

Each day since I began doing the challenge, I’ve found that instead of writing what’s on my mind or heart, I’m trying to think of something worthwhile to write about, beginning with the letter of the day.

At least I’ve reminded myself of why I wanted to write a blog; when I thought maybe what I wrote would be of interest to others, and at the same time give me satisfaction.

So, even though I feel like I’m ‘quitting’… maybe because I am,  I’m ‘just’ going to write when and if I feel led to do so!

I hope that the next post I do will be one that is more than just words, but a thought, an idea,  or at least something that I really feel is a result of the reason I began blogging in the first place, and not just because I have to!

(Diane)

A-Z Challenge ‘Honesty’

HOkay just to begin; I made an ‘honest mistake’ when I began this challenge. I really didn’t read about it when I discovered another blogger and friend said she was doing the A-Z challenge. I should have realized that each challenge does have various rules associated with it. I just zoned out, and didn’t read them. So I am an unofficial and unregistered participant.

I had thought this would be a good way to get back into regular blogging. I suppose that it really doesn’t matter though and at this time I won’t backtrack, but instead just follow the general idea of blogging on a subject relating to the alphabet. Today being ‘H’ I decided to come clean!

Honesty is a quality that has always been important to me. Trust comes from knowing that you can believe in someone. It also means that others can expect it from you.

Of course that doesn’t always mean you have to be brutally honest, if by doing so someone’s feelings may be hurt. There is wisdom in knowing how to be truthful, but not hurtful. I could give examples but I think that most of us know of those times.

I must say that I don’t react well when I find out someone has lied. I do tend to dwell on it too much in many cases. The strange thing is that often people will lie when they don’t have to, but they find it easier than telling the truth; or they don’t want to face a barrage of questions they imagine will be asked if they do.

Honesty is one of the most important qualities of any relationship………… even in the blogging community; hence my confession today… ha!

 

 

A-Z Challenge – A Way Back !

A-Z ChallengeI decided that perhaps “A’  way back to blogging after some months of limited posts, was to join the A-Z challenge….

It has been quite a few unsettled months for various reasons, that I’ve mentioned in some of my recent posts; ranging from health concerns in our family, some still ongoing, but hopefully soon to have answers, and to helping my sister cope with the death of her husband after 58 years of marriage. I’ve been trying to spend whatever time I can with her, and we are going to embark on a holiday towards the end of the month; just the two of us. When one gets older, the planning and hoping that all will work out without unforeseen issues, come to the forefront of one’s mind.

I have really missed the interaction of so many of my blogging friends, and have been remiss in reading your blogs and interacting with comment.  I have actually read some, but have not regularly done so.

Sometimes I thought that maybe my blogging days were over; but quickly dismissed it, as it has in the past several years become an intricate part of my life. I knew I would continue, even if not daily. However, when my friend Deb from My Weary Mind, who lost her husband and has been trying to move forward; decided to do this challenge, I thought that maybe it was a way back for me to blogging.

So, this is the first day of the challenge, and I hope a continuation for me to post, read and reconnect with many special people that I met in the wonderful world of ‘Blogging’.

I have never really researched to find out how that word was brought into existence, but to me it was the beginning of many friendships!

Some Things are Better

Hi ! My absence in the past few months from regular posts, and being involved in others’, has been because of several issues within our family. There was the death of my sister’s husband last July, and I’ve been trying to spend time when I can with her. Then two more family members’ death; a niece and a nephew.

Along with this there have been and still some ongoing issues medically with my husband and I. We had great news and an answer to prayer yesterday however, as we learned the results of certain tests for his lung. There was some indication that he might have had lung cancer, but the lesion has diminished in size and so they believe firmly that it is not a tumour. That was a great relief. He still has some other issues, but hoping they are resolved too.

For myself I had a ‘growth’ on my wrist, which at first I thought I could clear up with home treatment, but had to go and have it removed, and when the biopsy came back it had cancerous cells. I was then sent to a specialist to have a deeper incision to remove more tissue, which was a week and a half ago. I go for the follow-up next Monday, hoping that everything is now okay. Skin cancer is usually treated very easily and successfully.

I still however am facing this extreme fatigue. My doctor has been trying to find a medication that will help. She believes it’s a flare-up from the Multiple Sclerosis. It’s the kind of fatigue reminiscent of when I was originally diagnosed. In any case there are some new meds that are being tried for this. If it doesn’t let up soon, perhaps I’ll see a Neurologist as I haven’t for several years because of the fact I am not severely debilitated with the M.S. If so, it’ll likely be a wait to get in, but hoping something will help in the not too distant future.

I didn’t really intend this to be an ‘oh woe is me’ post, but thought I would offer an explanation for why I still haven’t been able to get back to regular blogging and reading other’s.

Thanks for indulging me!   Diane xxxx

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