Having experienced depression throughout most of my adult life, makes me once again realize that we are intricately connected by our ‘body, mind and spirit.
I’ve been free from the depth of darkness and depression for several years now, but the past couple of years with physical issues related to myself and my husband; and the deaths of several family members, I have once again realized how each facet of our being affects the others.
When our health is not the best, then it follows that we don’t think as clearly and that in turn affects our spiritual nature.
I feel right now like I’m in a bubble, wanting to do much more than I do, and when I don’t, I feel like a failure… Now I don’t really think I’m a failure; that’s a strong word, but I just don’t feel as though I’m part of what’s going on around me.
That’s the trick of the mind reacting in a negative way, which of course can mushroom into further difficulties. Fortunately I don’t travel back into the times of depression of earlier years, but there is a dullness in the spirit, and motivation. I go through the motions and do what I need to do, and go where I need to go, but it is with a feeling of doing so in a fog.
Concentration/fatigue are big factors that keeps me from accomplishing what I wish I could. I scan through some blogs, and think about writing, but come up short right now so much of the time.
Anyway, I know that many of you are going through issues of your own; some much more than I.
I hold on to hope that one day I will feel energized and will be able to participate more fully in many things, among which of course, is ‘blogging’ ! (Diane)
P.S. There are blessings around at even difficult times, that warm the spirit and soul, and one of them was a couple of weeks ago, when our grandson was surprised by his parents with a graduation party. They live in the States but arranged for older school friends and family back here in Canada, to help him celebrate graduating with high honors, and attending University in the fall. This is a photo with him and I.