Much has been written on prayer, but this is not really going to delve into anything deep or laden with spiritual knowledge.
It’s just a thought that came to me the other night. I was very tired but also wanted to ‘do’ my prayers. I was kind of negotiating with God without really realizing it; at least not right away.
It kind of went something like this… “Lord, you know I’m tired, and I know that I should pray tonight before I go to bed; but Lord with the number of people and issues I want to pray about, it’s going to take some time, and I don’t know how much energy I really have left, after the busy day I’ve had. So, you really know what and who I’m going to pray for anyway, so if I don’t lead into my prayers with thanksgiving and praise like I usually do, or say everyone’s name etc. you’ll understand.”
It was in that moment I got this comparison of what I had just said, as though I wanted to make a quick wish like when we have our birthday cake in front of us, and blow out the candles and that would be it.
I wanted to make my prayers ‘quick’ …. make my
‘wish” petitions, and go to bed!
Now I know sometimes we are tired or ill or depressed, and have many issues and burdens; and all we can utter is a heart-felt “Help me Lord”, and He understands our need at that time.
What I realized though, was that I was doing this too often; waiting until I was too tired to pray, and then thinking that God would understand if I took a short-cut and not being in the right prayerful state of mind, when I offered my petitions to Him. It was just one of those moments of insight for me.
In any case it has made me more aware that I need to rearrange my schedule, in order to make God’s time more of a priority!