I really hesitated to write anything at all because my thinking is just not where it needs to be to get back into some sense of normalcy. And I don’t like that my blog has become all about ‘me’.
The reason I’m writing anything is because my feeling of well-being is just so off right now. While the situation within the family is ongoing, I could perhaps deal with it if my physical condition was not so … I’m trying to think of the right word…don’t want to sound dramatic because it’s not serious and yet it is affecting so many areas of my life right now, even my spiritual!
The sleep deprivation is the worst to deal with. As some of you know it’s been months waiting to see a specialist because of circumstances that caused the delay. The appointment is in a couple of weeks finally and I am so hoping that something can be done to help…. I am sleeping still in my lazy boy as I still can’t lay flat, and can’t use my CPAP.. It’s just too uncomfortable to even try sitting up And the issue has increased anyway in that even sitting up I’m having problems.
I have been trying to read blogs and there was a group reading a certain book together that I thought I’d like to try that as well but alas I can’t even focus long enough to read much at all and my concentration is nil. I guess it has begun to affect my eyes as well. I see all the posts that I want to be looking at and can only do a few at a time and if the fatigue doesn’t hit me, my eyes fail me.
This sounds like an ‘oh woe is me blog’, but I didn’t know any way else to explain my lack of participation in your posts other than to tell it like it is. I have a couple of other physical issues that I won’t bore you with, but I needed to let you know.
I’m going to read when I can and hopefully at least keep in touch with where you are in your lives and blogging, but there’s no way that I will keep up.
I am just so ‘weary’….