Okay, well I did a post recently on Patience and now a short one on Perseverance.
I won’t go into a lot of details of the logistics of what happened but I will try to summarize. While I was working on a blog site; not mine, but one I help to do work on, I inadvertently ’caused’ (or thought I had) a problem whereby on the home site, and clicking on the post, an error code appeared. I thought to myself…what have I done and how am I going to fix this? I checked everything over and over; I went to WordPress.com support and then WordPress.org support. I redid this over and over until I got myself so upset and even angry that I could do such a thing, I even used the word ‘stupid’ to describe how I felt.
I spent hours trying to read all that I could about this error code that came up but to now avail …at least not for a long time. I really beat myself up that I had caused this to happen….I had caused on someone else’s blog. I just felt so bad and last night went to bed with this on my mind.
I did pray that God would show me what the answer was and so this morning tackled the problem right away. Finally one word popped out to me in something I was reading…..in one of the settings. I went and thought well if this isn’t the problem I will just change it back to what it was, and keep searching.
Perseverance paid off because the elusive answer was indeed found.
One other reason I did this post is to say how readily I was to lay blame on myself and work myself up instead of thinking that this could be a ‘technical’ issue that just happened and not my fault. Self-doubt in a big way came into being. This was something that when I had depression was common-place in my mind.
I felt the ‘perfectionism’ that I thought had left me had crept back into my thinking. And again I reminded myself that we set ourselves up for a fall, if we expect we will not make a mistake and just deal with it. As it turned out I was not at fault ..this time, but in future I will make mistakes and wrong choices and I hope this issues has reminded me of this fact and to deal with it better.
So I will try to accept this, and next time be a little kinder to myself. And while I am so happy the issue is resolved I paid the price, brought on only by myself.