Sometimes I find it so hard to focus on what I’m doing or even thinking. Maybe it has always been so, bu I’m thinking it the generation we’re living in right now. There is so much it seems going on around us. But I find the most difficult time to do so is often when prayer time comes around.
Now I know that many can relate to that, because that is when we’re attempting to connect to God in the most intimate way. We are laying ourselves open to Him and petitioning for ourselves and others. It makes me so frustrated because it seems as quiet as I try to make my environment I see a light or I hear the clock ticking or hear some other miniscule sound. Even as I pray, the busyness of the current day or previous day will come to mind, or all of a sudden I will catch myself thinking about tomorrow’s tasks. I will sometimes be praying for a specific person’s needs and then my mind will be sidetracked about something else going on with that person…or I will be reading scripture or a devotional and I find that I don’t remember a word of what I just read and so read it two or three times.
Perhaps, I feel it’s my lack of concentration, and then I wonder why there is such difficulty. I am in the presence of God, after all so why would I even let myself think about anything else. Then I wonder if it’s because I’m tired and that’s why my mind is wandering. But it doesn’t matter what time of day it is I find…it’s whenever I go to prayer.
When I find this happening I confess that it is, and have a talk with Him about it. After I do it usually subsides and often times I don’t even hear the ticking of the clock and I marvel at that.
I’m glad that I don’t only pray at a specific time set aside for it, but am doing so during the day often times when someone comes to my mind and I’m aware that there is a need. It’s not a long process as it is only sometimes a matter of less than a minute but I know that my prayer is heard.
Once I read in scripture...”Pray without ceasing”.…and I thought no one can pray that way, but then I learned that it really meant to be in an awareness of prayer throughout my day, and so that’s what I try to do.
Whatever my focus is, it needs to the realization that God is listening and answering, whenever we speak even in our whispers during our busy day.