There are many ways of finding yourself in ‘darkness’. My darkness carried the name ‘depression’.
As I look back on my life, I would say that even as a teenager there were times when I felt so lonely that my thoughts wandered into that “how am I ever going to feel better”? But I managed to keep on keeping on.
Then when the children were so young and so many pressures of life, I handled what I needed to but the times of feeling so overwhelmed were present often.
Although I don’t recall how many, there were a lot of times that I fell into ‘the pit of darkness’ in my life. The worst times were feeling like I definitely couldn’t go on another day but somehow squeezing one day after another. A couple of times but for the Grace of God I wouldn’t be here writing this today. There were doctors that helped along the way, but eventually situations would arise that would tempt me into returning to my old negative thinking. Don’t get me wrong…I went through some very trying times but lots of people do and do not ever get to that bad place. It was obviously in my physiological makeup. I am happy to say that for several years now I have not been in that pit of despair, and believe it is a combination of the support and help of others, doctor’s help, medication when necessary and the help of the Lord.
There are others that must feel the same level of loneliness and darkness experienced by me, but for other reasons such as drug, alcohol or other obsession in their lives. We need to really learn some of the reasons or triggers that cause such a negative and destructive attitude in us. Realizing the truth about ourselves is part of the battle…another part is to decide to fight it with all our strength and might. At the risk of repeating myself, take the support, and prayers offered and do whatever it takes.
Stay out of the darkness and walk however slowly it takes…into the light. And realize there are many who have been there too. You are not alone! You are never alone!