Thankfulness Mondays -” I Have A Dream “

Another Monday (week 24 of 52) participating with Bernadette from ‘Haddon Musings’, recognizing things in our live to be thankful for, offsetting many negative issues that surround us all daily.

I’m thankful for the ability to ‘dream’ and to recognize some of them being realized even greater than what I could ever have imagined.

When I was young my greatest dream was to one day have a family; to love and to raise them to be the best they could be. The dream was never to insist they be a doctor, lawyer, politician or anything that evaluated their worth by how important or rich they became. My only hope was that they would grow and be ‘good people’.

Because my mother instilled in me that love, compassion and kindness were more important traits, I wanted the same for my children should I have any in my future.

When I was going through many intermittent years of depression, my dream was to be well and enjoy life more than I did, but even more importantly to alleviate the times that were difficult for those around me, that had to see me so unhappy.

There were hopes and dreams that I might make a difference in this sometimes chaotic world we live in.

Well, I have to say that the fulfillment of the important dreams that I had, were more than I could have asked for or imagined… as is written in the Bible. That’s what God promises to those who can believe Him.

I have a family to love and cherish, and who share that love. They have made lives for themselves and are happy.

Several years now, I have been freed from depression…. not always from sadness or problems… but ‘depression!

I was able for many years to work for an organization that helped people overseas and within our country, who were/are in need of the very basics in life.

…And having said that, there are so many in this world that can’t even hope to ‘dream’ for anything different than what they have known for much of their life; war, hunger and physical health.

So I’m enlarging my ‘dream’ to hope for their future, that one day they will have all that they need!

Family picture last year. Our three children and us.

Family picture last year. Our three children and us.

Thankfulness Mondays- Say Ahhhh !

Well, it’s Week 23 of a year, participating with Bernadette of Haddon Musings, recognizing things we are thankful for hoping to offset the more negative areas in our life and in the world.

This week I want to say how thankful I am for the doctors in our country, and more specifically that I have been seeing over the past couple of years.

I’ve had a few challenges physically speaking, and I am so grateful for doctors who listen… and care enough to keep trying to find the answers. It’s sometimes frustrating; the ‘well let’s try this’ or ‘that’ etc. The point is; they don’t give up. Tests yes, I can do whatever they ask, because I know that it’s necessary for diagnostic purposes.

Canada, and Ontario where I am specifically, is fortunate to have a healthcare system, while not perfect..  is none-the-less I believe very good. Yes, there are sometimes long waits for specialist appointments, but usually only if it’s not an emergency situation.

So, today I say thanks to the doctors and nurses that strive to do the best that they can, to help those with physical needs.

A Poem/Painting in Memory of ‘Koko’

I already did a post about having to say good-bye to our beloved pet for 13 years ‘Koko’, so I won’t repeat any of it, but the night that we had taken him in to be put to sleep I was up late, and decided to write a poem in his memory.  I thought I’d share it, and also a painting I did of him today. I’m strictly an amateur,  but it helps me to do so in remembrance of him…. Thanks for indulging me!

When we brought you home that very first day

We thought we had chosen you

But lo and behold we soon found out

Clearly out of the blue….


We didn’t decide who we’d take home

It was done by the Lord above

For when you were placed in our arms

It was a case of immediate love


You were so cute

And your big brown eyes looked into ours.

We smiled, and you knew we were hooked

And were home in a matter of hours.


You had captured both of our hearts;

We loved and were loved in return

That was over thirteen years ago,

A love that none of us had to earn.


Today you trusted in us once again

To do what was best for you,

The decision was made

The options were few.



Our hearts are so heavy, our eyes full of tears

We’ll surely miss you, and it won’t be the same,

But it helps to know that you’re not in pain…..

And in our hearts you will always remain…


You Were Not the Creator of America

I can’t help but voice my opinion on the ‘white supremacy’ (not capitalized)  movement currently spouting their racism! Listening to their ridiculous rhetoric especially recently, is enough to make me disgusted and angry.

I really hesitate to give any credibility even by writing about them or mentioning their name, but after watching the latest in the news, I just had to write something. The speaker was saying how ‘they’ …  the Europeans and the white race ‘created’ America.  I guess they don’t remember that Thanksgiving is this Thursday, when America celebrates the pilgrims coming, and meeting with the Native Indians that were already there and to give thanks for the blessings they have.

What really is troubling is that there seems to be too many people who spout this nonsense; too many who are anti-sematic, anti-immigration, anti-black, anti-anyone other than them. The United States was founded on Christianity but freedom most of all to worship or believe what they wanted to.

The key word being freedom. This white supremacy movement is all about squelching everyone else who lives there, that does not believe as they do! I wonder what exactly makes them think they are superior to anyone else? Do they really applaud Nazism and what happened in the Holocaust? What is warping their minds, because warped is what they are?

Freedom does not mean that you have the right to take it away others’. Freedom does not mean that you have the right to threaten, intimidate or cause harm to another person by words or actions.  People are charged with hate crimes as individuals, and yet this group is ‘free’ to spout hatred and dissension it seems at will.

What is wrong with our laws? Something is for sure. It is called the alt-right but that’s just a pseudonym for racism. Whether you are Christian or not, we need to speak out and fight for those who are oppressed or threatened in any way with what I consider poisonous nonsense. I realize this is not just an issue in the United States, but at the moment that’s where the focus is right now.

I know what I say will likely not change anything, but to say nothing tonight was not an option for me!

We Said Our Good-Byes Today

Today we said our good-byes to our beloved pet and doggie Koko.

He has been a light in our lives for 13 years, and brought so much joy to us. It’s so hard to do the ‘right’ thing..  knowing that you do not want him to suffer any further debilitation.

We’ve had 6 other times that we have had to do this, but it doesn’t make it any easier. Our pets have always been part of our family.

Koko has had issues for several years with his liver, and gone through many tests and procedures, but we weren’t about to put him through anymore at his age. I guess we noticed his behavioural changes for the past few months, and they increased. He wasn’t aggressive, just confused and we’re pretty sure he was in pain, as he would yelp when he was sleeping even.  As my daughter said; animals really handle pain without anyone noticing it, until it becomes very evident and frequent. He also needed comfort more, and would climb up on either my husband’s chair or mine, and during the night he would let out a little sound to let us know he wanted us to put him up on our bed. Normally he always slept in his own! He seemed to be looking into space sometimes, lost in his own ‘doggie thoughts’, and very recently began having ‘accidents’ in the house.

I believe that when an animal is so much a part of you, your instinct and spirit let you know when the right time is to let them go. Both my husband and I had the same feeling, although I left it up to him to decide the time, as he was even closer to him than I.

He went peacefully, in the crook of my husband’s arm, and we will miss his greeting us at the door… and so very much more.

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Thankfulness Mondays – Our Friends In USA

american-flagIt’s week 22 of a year that I am participating with Bernadette of Haddon Musings, with a goal of realizing how many things we have to be thankful for in this somewhat chaotic world we all live in.

Today, I want to express how thankful I am for our neightbours to the south in USA, who are celebrating Thanksgiving this week on November 24th.

They have had quite an upheaval this past month. It follows almost two years of campaigning, with many debates that were filled with much rhetoric that created a lot of dissension and uncertainty for many people. Canada and the U.S.A have a strong connection and friendship in so many areas; economic, travel, trade, and so on.

My hope and prayer is, that through all the controversy, and sometimes unnerving things spoken during their election, that the people will learn to trust and support each other, for all that makes their country what it has been and is today.

For to allow fear and injustice to pervade in the atmosphere, will deny the very freedoms that has always been celebrated.

May this Thanksgiving give pause for all Americans, to give thanks for what they have, and to seek peace and justice for all.

Happy Thanksgiving from a Canadian who appreciates very much the friendship that our countries have with each other. May God continue to Bless America.

Thankfulness Mondays – ‘Hope’

Again participating with Bernadette of Haddon Musings for week 21 of a year, taking Mondays to post about something that we are thankful for, offsetting negative thoughts  and actions in our lives and in the world in general.

Today, I’m so thankful for all that’s implied in the word ‘hope’.

There really is much in our lives and in the world we live in, that can rob us of joy and peace. I know I’ve had many obstacles in my life, and when you suffer through depression ‘hope’ fades….. but it never totally abandoned me! There was always a flicker of hope, even during my most difficult times. That’s what kept me going; kept me believing that I could get better; and I could overcome.

I was confused and troubled and cried out to God for help, but there was always that ‘flicker of  “hope’ within me. This scripture verse I believe is apropos.

Romans 5:3-4 “We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope.”

Now I don’t believe that we exactly rejoice when we’re going through difficult time, but in retrospect everything I went through made me stronger and made me who I am today.

So I can say that in a sense, I cannot be unhappy with that time and what I learned as I persevered, and hope grew within my very soul.

p.s. I just found out this is my 5th year anniversary for blogging.